Children of GOD

Last Saturday I didn't oversleep as opposed to the usual Saturdays where I don't leave the bed until I make sure that I slept complete ten hours so as to compensate for a rigorously tiring week..And there was a chaste motive behind that. We were being taken to an orphanage for a visit & I was quite keen to be there for my own ethical contentment. Its not that I've never been to one..just beside our home in Ranchi there was a child-rehabilitation center where most of the kids were orphans so I had a fair idea what the visit was going to be like.

But this visit was of such a short period that I at once was feeling I better shouldn't have come at all. That was something which nobody had expected. I was feeling it would be more of a formal sojourn. Very much like a political leader's hasty visit to such places done just for media attention. People were evidently not happy with that..and why wouldn't they be, they were there with a purpose - taking their time out to spend a weekend with those unfortunate kids.
I was amazed & delighted at the same time by the no. of folks turning up to go there..it will be so great if everybody continues to show the same eagerness ever n always to lend a helping hand to the needy.

I'd like to make it clear that its no somber recount of my experiences from this brief visit..neither its any usual dismal condemnation of the society and system. Its just my attempt to glance the things with a positive perspective, a revitalizing way rather than my habitual cribbing at the system..enough of that hogwash. Contemplation makes life miserable..we should act more, think less, n stop watching ourselves live. I needed to look at the positives of the life. I feel acknowledging the commendable work those benign men & women are doing in that orphanage is one of the aspects we always miss out. Its no easy job to handle those many kids who are without their parents & that too when many are just few weeks old, but they were doing their job with so much of dedication and devotion that was truly laudable to say the least.

It was quite touching when one of the toddlers held my finger & wasn't willing to leave it when I reached out to caress its cheeks..one beside was too happy with our presence n was smiling continuously in its cradle as we looked on..it brought smiles on the faces of everybody around. Most of the kids there were below 5 years of age or around that..some among them were even few weeks old. It was all so good to see so many infants sleeping, smiling, giggling in their cradles. :-)

In the next room there were kids playing..just 2-3 years old. As we entered there was a kinda apprehension visible in the children's faces but it went off as soon as we greeted them with a smile & we were fairly reciprocated with their sweet smiles.The happiness in them was worth watching while I was giving away chocolates to them..I was in fact feeling like a Santa Claus without a beard & his red cloak surrounded by those little kids.[;)]
It was amusing to see one of the kids hiding her share of chocolate very smartly behind her and asking for it again & again. I gave few more to that little gal & said to myself.."oh..look at her..how cunning this kid is..". But soon I realized I was wrong..she wasn't collecting those for herself..she gave away those extras to two kids who didn't get any. It was so moving..Children are so much innocent, far from any malignant feelings for others..they really have the purest of hearts.

There were mentally challenged children in another room..it was so pathetic just to see them. We were told that some of these children can not perform the simplest of tasks that we all seem to take for granted like sitting or walking straight or even eating.
The orphanage staffs there I must acknowledge were doing a commendable job for its quite evident that a great amount of patience and tolerance is required to supervise and handle such children.

This visit got over in no time ,n I wasn't feeling like going anywhere else. So I came back to our bus which was there to drop us back to our dorms. Those high spirits of the morning had taken a different shape by then..may be taken over by a mixed feeling of anguish and empathy.




Babies are angels that fly to the Earth,
their wings disappear at the time of their birth,
one look in their eyes and we're never the same.

Monday mournings..

mondays are the potholes in the road of life..
but sunday's carousal is always there to get through it [:P]

Pro Palin..but not a Pro McCain-Palin

I was so eager to watch Palin-Biden debate & was expecting to see Sarah Palin going great guns in one of the world's most highly anticipated vice-presidential debate..though sadly I wasn't able to watch it, I managed to get a transcript of the whole proceedings together with some experts' feedbacks and what I could make out from it was she was unquestionably able to live up to the expectations encompassing her. I'm quite happy about it for I'm pro Palin and this endorsement is there cuz I've high regards for this woman and there are a flurry of reasons and explanations for this reverence.

Having said that this backing is limited till her encounter with senator Joseph Biden Jr. as I have no sympathies with the Republicans. Its strange that though I strongly abhor the Republicans' policies n ideologies (especially talking of its imperious foreign policies) I am exhibiting favoritism towards Sarah Palin but for the reason you got to read "Sarah: How a Hockey Mom Turned Alaska's Political Establishment on Its Ear," by kaylene johnson & the chances are even you'll become an admirer of the governor of Alaska. Anybody having an interest in world politics must be aware of Palin's executive experience..prowess with a gun in the woods or the lakeside fishing but the book speaks of those minute details cuz of which what she is now today & what made McCain choose her as a vice-presidential candidate for the Republicans.

Back to the debate of yesterday which I was talking about Sarah Palin must have made McCain feel good this time after her series of not so good interviews. Her adversary Sen. Joseph R. Biden Jr. Was not going to be a piece of cake anyways but she managed to survive it. McCain is already a man in distress & there were some talks about her basic qualifications for the VP Office which was surely adding up to his woes but after this highly anticipated debate which certainly gave him a sigh of relief & would help him to concentrate on his other troubles shading his campaign. Her feisty performance must have raised the spirits of the conservative Republicans who were so dejected since she was nominated & I heard that some of them from the conservative block are coming forward to acknowledge that “her performance will re-energize the conservative base,”.

Palin and Biden's debate was pivoted to the economy and diplomacy.
"You're darn right it was the predator lenders,..there was greed and corruption on Wall Street."...She was putting the Wallstreet responsible for the United State's one of the worst economic crisis which has eventually led to a global economic slowdown...on the other hand Senator Biden blamed few of the crisis on deregulation policies that Republican presidential candidate John McCain believes in. "McCain voted for deregulation and that is why we are in the crisis that we are in," he said. (Even I feel the same, that its all a good lesson for the Republicans who believe and keep banging the drum for a market that would administer and regulate itself with minimal government interference ).

Shifting to international issues Palin was quick to accuse Obama of voting against funding for U.S. troops in combat & chastised Biden for defending the move, "especially with your son in the National Guard headed for Iraq..!!"
Biden was even quicker to counter-attack.."John McCain voted against funding for the troops, as well.." adding that the Republican presidential candidate had been "dead wrong on the fundamental issues relating to the conduct of the war." He didn't reply to Palin's mention of his son, the attorney general who's scheduled to fly to Iraq with his national Guard unit on Friday..

Due to the growing public interest on Palin's performance, cuz of the governor's largely unknown political skills & her mistakes made during recent interviews the debate had been expected to be a TV hit..& as a matter of fact it turned out to be one, becoming the most watched vice presidential debate in the U.S. history..The debate set a new record for a VP debate beating the previous high set by the VP debate between Democratic Geraldine Ferraro and then-vice president George H.W. Bush; in addition to that it also very easily succeeded in beating their running companions' debate (the debate between Democratic Senator Barack Obama and Republican Senator John McCain a week back) by a large margin.
There are talks like who did the better job at the end..who was more likable..and so on.. but to me what matters is that both the candidates crossed everybody's expectations with their performances, especially Palin who I feel will make her critics do a rethinking who hold a wrong opinion about her. I'm eagerly looking forward to get the recorded version of this televised debate.

Sun goes down... again

Inspiration has left me..i have got no inspiration at all to write..theres so many things to write about but as soon as i take out the phone i choke (yeah its far better than PC with the mobility factor as an added advantage).I forget everything that i wanted to write down.Its quite annoying actually. The last blog was just about a song. I was looking for another song but I don't really like using other peoples' words and make them my own..

But still there are some songs which I like keep talkin about again n again..Last night thanks to my good fortune(I must emphasize it cuz I still remember how much crazy I was for this song few years back)..I got to listen "Sun goes down" by deep purple on VH1. Rarely do I watch TV these days but that was somethin I couldn't have afforded to miss out...n I was wishing if they could play next "Pictures of innocence" from the same album but sadly they didn't..:-( This album 'Bananas' was one helluva album and surely this was their one of the best..i mean each of the tracks in it gelled so well n made it one superb album, however it will be a pure blasphemy if I try putting it in the same league as 'Machine head' (Highway star & Smoke on the water fame).

After the disappointment of 'Abandon' I was wary of Bananas but after a listen I knew that this album was leagues better in every way..any fan of melodic hard rock will enjoy this.. It was their third album with guitarist STEVE MORSE n who would resist the sexiness of Steve Morse & vocals of Gillan together..well at least I couldn't that time and even right now I couldn't..

Now the first thing Im gonna do is rummage around for this album or at least that track by any means (my means consist of mainly searching through the net or asking some fren of mine for it-some are self proclaimed connoisseurs of music among them:-P..)so that I can put it in my zenstone firsthand as an attempt to satiate this never ending craving for music..
But before that i wish to post the song here as a moral commiseration for me until I get it in my audio player.

So ladies n gentlemen here goes down the sun for you...!!!

DEEP PURPLE- Sun Goes Down

Oh you're all looking up
With hearts of devotion
Through the dust and the heat lost to me
In a cloud of emotion
I have no motivation
To keep this breathless pace
I'm more inclined to stay here
In this breathing space

And the sun goes down
And the moon comes up

I never tried to walk the walk
'Cos the steps are elusive
The membership is too costly
And exclusive
Hey, the more I've got
The more I stand to lose
So I'm gonna unpack my bags
And take off my shoes

And the sun goes down
And the moon comes up

Let me tell you there's no point knocking
At the big oak door
Can't you see that it's all full up
They can't take no more
The line's so long
It's almost Disney
Ooh:
Wont somebody kiss me

And the sun goes down
And the moon comes up

.......

These aren't my lines..these are from a song whose title I couldn't recall
'She loves him more than he would ever know, he loves her more than he would ever show..'
Im listening CSNY right now n still those lines are doing rounds of my mind since last hour.Somebody help me find out which song it is...

A welcome change

Today was so different..Guess why..??
Well no rewards for any speculation..for the folks present there in the lab late afternoon better know why.

The man in charge for the "Scare factor" was today unanticipatedly a horse of a different color singing a completely different tune, nevertheless im sure everybody must have enjoyed that. Certainly there was a reason for his cheerfulness & the reason was everybody from our batch had successfully cleared one mandatory certification in one go..and not just cleared but cleared with surprisingly such great marks.. one can reckon it from the fact that the lowest was 90%:-) (Not to forget that it's regarded as quite a tough nut to crack :-P )

As a result we were treated with a sorta small coffee party thrown by the commander himself for the batch's fabulous performance and it was labeled as "Coffee with commander " -Sounded so familiar except for the 'commander' part but he was at his best to be an equally good n hospitable host as that name suggested. Smirking all the way since the moment He entered into the lab till he left. When I first came to know about it I hoped we were cruising for a bruising( folks were in fact lookin for "excuses" for backing up their superb performance,..guys who had scored highest marks were miserably scared the daylights of it ) but He really caught one and all off guarded with His unusually congenial behavior.

There was that typical smile on His face as He spoke but this time it was genuine..not involving anything sarky. Nonetheless His own acid test was still undone so he wanted to double corroborate it again with His own set of questions. The first one being related to laws of motion it was so much pleasing to see the giant OAP[:P] talkin about it in such a descriptive way after few responses which were not at par..It was impressive in the way He illustrated it and I honestly didn't expect from Him.

Few more rounds of such questions with a tinge of smile n His unique dry humour and lots of giggles from our side added up to the already gleeful ambience...n He was a happy and contented man at the end, by the words of Him & by the look on His face..;-)

We were later told that this was the first time the commander was having coffee with an ELTP batch..n I feel we deserved that for this was the outcome of the sweat of our very own brows..Rakshit & I know it very well..(or for that matter the whole class knows it so well :-D )

Now if there's anything called sea change..this is it..!!!


They must often change, who would be constant in happiness or wisdom. ~Confucius

A tribute to business unit

After the phase I of my training period which I somehow managed to get through after lots of last moment painstakingly rigorous processes( yeah the so called processes..the lousy processes ) I landed into phase II & its nearly two weeks that I've been into it..The first n foremost change which I observed after reaching this far is the ultimatums from those undesirable creatures whom i talked about in my earlier blog have subsided drastically to the pleasant surprise for most of the folks. We feel a lot safe n secure now..

So the phase II began amid lots of anticipation and the hype created reagardin some business unit responsible for the rest of our training period. We were made to believe as if a kinda new struggle was gaping at us..like the first phase wasn't enough for that.Ours being some customized batch as we were reminded constantly we were thoroughly dealt in a customized way (read screwed) n we coming from some PPP Colleges (nopes..It surely doesn't stand for Point to Point protocol or Poor People's Party..this wild guessing is there cuz even they don't know what this acronym stands for) added up to our woes. The first day of phase II got ahead with a faculty from business unit narrating his plans to keep us on toes for the next three weeks, I could well remember the stressed out faces of the folks that time. And to speak somethin about our business unit faculty..I feel I was expecting more from a 'Business unit' person when I first saw him.Its not that he appeared disgusting but he wasn't at par with their very own business standards..he may be believing in the notion that appearance is never what actually matters..very true ,even I do believe so.

The impression which he created about himself in the initial days was like he was going to be very strict in his approach but gradually we realized he was a real far cry from what he was talking about..I mean as a person & as a business unit facilitator he was one of the most liberal n easy going facilitator which was unexpectedly very different from his early image but at the same time there was some peculiarity about him..n I was the first one to Point out about that bit of weirdness in his actions n manners when our Program manager asked for a feedback for him. His irritatingly screeching voice and together with it his over stressed n funny way of pronouncing some specific words were always a kinda catalyst to show us a funny side of a rather dull class.

One thing worth mentioning here is that cuz of his not so gentlemanly mannerisms in the class he led himself into a high level furore which was there for quite some time noticeably due to a hesitant n slothful approach of the higher officials..Im sure it could have costed him his job at worst. I still admire that bold n straight-forward statement made by one among the trio of his favorites which in a way lambasted the indecisiveness of the officials in the best possible way and eventually brought an end to all the pandemonium happening inside the class cuz of it..

Who knows what was that...his natural mannerism or an off putting randiness. In all my sanity I would wish it was the first option else no faith would be left there & which surely won't do any good to anybody.
Good that his term of a week or two in our class concluded with a good note which was a relief considerin the fact that it went so sour at one Point of time.

A funny old man with a heart of a teenager...That was him... :-) :-D

Why...???

Why is it that when a man gets up to speak, people listen then look,...n when a woman gets up, people look.., then, if they like what they see they listen..!! [:P][:D]

Divide n Rule

So finally the batch has been divided n the way it has been divided I find it questionable as how just a single test was employed as a criteria for the division especially when the results are shockingly so contrasting.
I could sense an air of uneasiness n discontentment among few of the left outs here n few from the otherside as well. The reasons were different- one side performed extraordinarily brilliant(at least in context to the result )[my team performed the best...kudos to my team mates..;-)] n what they got is their broken squads and a highly softspoken giant who'll help them continue with those sleep inducing n monotonous classes & the reason for a hushy disgruntlement from the other side is that their results have been truly very much contradictory and hard to swallow for them n others too,..Even I believe the same. The breather for them is I'd say they haven't been asked to continue in some far off Centre.
Now the most important thing is how we'll cope up here without our guides n helper buddies..the added pain is that soft spoken giant himself who I believe can induce sleep in you even if you've gotten off the bed a moment back..such are his lectures.one has to struggle to stay awake..SLEEPING PILLS ARE PASSE FOLKS..COME HERE & GET A SOUND SLEEP..that too for free..
Those darn mysterious 'processes' which they keep talkin about did the harm to us once again & there is really nothin we can do about it..sadly :-(
Anyways gotta rush now..need to do some workout..my six packs are fading :-( :-( :-(

Equality...!!

I believe in equality ...I believe all people are equally inferior to me.....
(Pun intended..) ;-) :-D

An unwanted transmogrification

I really couldn't believe this..i actually managed to find some time out to post something here cuz lately I've been as busy as a one legged bloke in an arse kicking contest & a diversion like blogging is real back breakin..should rather say hellish..
Its been two n a half months that they have literally held me captive in this heavily guarded hidey hole secluded from the city but the respite is im not alone..there are other hapless folks as well accompanying me here..I wouldn't like to do any delay in clarifying that here 'they' implies a software company n their hidey hole is nothin but their technology center n im nothin but a white collared software Er.

So finally here I am..fluky or not so fluky enough..to get metamorphosed from a not so inept electrical engineer to a total klutzy software engineer (read Tester ).. but what's even more tragic is the fact that what they call a world class professional training is nothing but a sadistic approach of the companies to develop humans into dummies & bots..expecting them to act, work & behave more like their automated softwares and demanding to get accomplished in an alien domain in a stipulated time which is just one tenth or even lesser than what it normally takes to get a hold of it...This is just one facet of it all. Add to it their gruelling schedule which forced me many times to realize that NDA really wasn't any option at all for me & not going for it was actually a good decision;-)..

Then there is the all so new n intense work pressure environment which is made to feel even worse by the presence of some commanders who I think are a hired lot by the company for the 'SCARE FACTOR'..to instil fear among the new joinees so as to squeeze the best out of them.I honestly feel they are better suited for the border side army recon..There is also an operations team to monitor our activities headed by a savage looking creature who does the unfinished tasks of such commanders..

In pursuit of customer satisfaction & delighting the customers strategy they miss out the basic fact that their employees are equally important as their customers.

To tell the truth life has been real tough in more than one ways here n im still on my way to get used to of the changes..For instance the no. of hours im sleeping a day nowadays is close to my noon siesta at home..Im eating the kinda food which I'd have given to Jimmy had I been home..

Nevertheless I shouldn't forget to acknowledge the fact that the rapport I've developed here with a bunch of guys who have gradually turned up to be real good buds has eased off many of the problems..

Earlier I used to hit life hard n now its the other way round ..life is hitting back at me from all the possible angles n wid twice the ferocity & the company n the job are cooperating as much as it can in that but im glad that its the same unaffected me, the same non chalant person which I ever have been..I really won't like to give a darn to anybody..

My gratuitous growlings..

arrrrrggggghhhh....why ..why..why...dunno why...I think I'll never know why I do this..everyday I go through the same suffering..what drives me to get up every morning jus to return to this hell we call earth.....?
what the hell am i bitching about anyways...I mean there are people out there that has barely got anything...and they are not complaining.. they really dont care about tomorrow...they live for today and today only.. I envy persons who live like that cuz regrettably i aint left like that anymore..damn im slouching here like the world's biggest shirker cussing everythin comin along my way...damn what has gone wrong...

A suggestion

Never tell your problems to anyone... 20% don't care and the other 80% are glad you have them...

Hard work ----> Chararcter

hard work spotlights the character of people... some turn up their sleeves.. some turn up their noses n some don't turn up at all !!

20 distinct characteristics of real lazy people..

20 distinct characteristics of real lazy people..

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Once a lazy always a lazy...

Phew...this one turned quite a long long furlough...was fearing if this account of mine was up n running and to my pleasant surprise it is.. :-) I actually ran across some blogger's work which made me realize that not too long ago I too had opened one account here with a motive to give vent to those pent-up emotions and I think it was bursting with ultra enthusiasm that time [:P]n sadly now it seems those stifled emotions got that much constrained :( that I eventually forgot to post something here...!!
or may be I was in such an interior region where I had no access to such comforts as net n all...
or was it that I had forgotten my ID & password...!!
once a lazy always a lazy...:) :D
But I hope I wont allow this kinda long long gaps from now on...I'd keep chipping in with my valueless gab n I also hope you lazy guys drooping on your chairs will devote your precious time going through it all ....:)

A not so differential issue..

As you folks proceed to read it i suggest you to have an open mind before i evaluate everythin im about to say...
First thing first Ive been highly influenced with Michael Gurian's brain research techniques that are still quite debatable..though quite powerful n innovative in their own regarding gender differences when it comes to their emotional n cerebral quotient but by this it never implies im biased towards one particular gender or hyping for a sorry disparity between the two. Let me be very clear that im dead set against it. Wot im talkin of is an eternal difference that sets apart each one's existence but sadly it sometimes leads to an unfair n unvirtuous disparity..

So wid all due regard n reverence to all those feminists n not so feminists n anti feminists as well, this has nothin to do wid your very own altruistic sentiments..Things like race, age n appearance are all aspects of our physical identity but gender is the prime factor in defining wot we are n how we are perceived. For instance a man n a woman can look at exactly same thing & find somethin exactly different..
Gender has a powerful influence on the way we manifest our feelings n emotions..

Its a fact that boys are more easily angered n gals are slower to anger. A typecast gal will feel niceness is somethin that brings praise and protection n loudness of anger is something to stay away from. In order to be a so called "Good gal" soft spoken n not causing trouble, ...Liability is very necessarily somethin to take care about not hurting feelings or triggering anger.

Gender tells gals avoid conflict, to make things pleasant n to be nice. No fostering of the courage just the suppression of the confrontation. She is supposed to be pretty, shapely n able to attract attention by her looks..if shes not that attractive she must be more subservient. Manipulation not confrontation is the cultivated exercising of power for the stereotypic female.

Then there are the gals who spurn the stereotype n rebel against it. They imitate aggressive male behavior n define power in terms of anger n intimidation. They rely on ridicule to establish their position n taunt others who represent the female role they are rejecting. Emotional outbursts often in the form of clamour n violence are a natural outgrowth of the unfair response n treatment they receive.
On the other hand boys who fit the stereotype for acceptable male behaviour feel they rule the world. If they are smart n handsome they can assume they are superior to others n keep exhibiting that through their hoity toity ways. They can become overweenin..arrogant..manipulative or dominative.Their talent n charm can become an excuse for lording it over others. Feelin superior they can demand respect but not once think they need to give it too.

Accountability is not at all admissible to them cuz they endorse this stereotypic belief system. Their birthright is superiority with impunity.
Males often talk n act aggressively..even violently.Its an accepted expression of boys 'coming of age'. Masculinity is tied to aggression. To be a man is to be in charge. To be gentle is to be a wimp, a weak excuse for a man, an object of derision n ridicule.
We must realize that to speak of fairness,integrity n equality we must attend to gender and how it affects the way we approach personal power n vulnerability.

The iniquitous society which we live in is all responsible for the deplorable dissimilitude between the two but its us who form the society..n we need to bring that change in our mindsets. A fair resolution that brings with it a greater understanding n respect for each other will allow us to meet n join together with integrity n intimacy. Respecting each others differences is a means of recognising the similarities..None is the best n none is the worst..Its just that both are different..

Reality is for people who lack imagination...

No smoking..(X)

As i have quitted smoking for good..So obviously I find it quite irritating( or say tempting:-D) as some buddy of mine pulls it on right beside me..You guys better read this for yourself..This one is for you all..Cheers..!!:-) mate smokin is the residue of your pleasure:-(..It contaminates the air, pollutes my hair and my clothes not to mention my delicate lungs..n this all takes place without my consent...btw i too find my pleasure in one thing..I love beers..n mine residue of pleasure is urine..would u be annoyed if i stood on a chair n pissed on your head n on your clothes without your consent...:-P

Back to bedlam

...Had thought before joining this bloggin thing that it will be just crammed with all those random thoughts n impressions that obscure the mind big time n the logical mental faculties called sanity which eventually got affected cuz of it.... But as i move on im finding it tough ..Im not knowing how to give a perceptible silhoutte to those vague contemplations which once shrouded the whole mind n soul..May be i need time.. May be it still is the same snafu self of mine.. Or may be folks im boring the heck out of you wid my stoical ruminative blabberings.. Wotever...Ive got now a little space to give vent to those troubling perplexing thoughts cuz of which im all fucked up lately..